Penny and I lasted until the end of the year with the last month being more off than on. Again I felt the stinging numbness of heartbreak and loss. Looking back on it decades later, I wonder if I was really broken up over Penny or just at the idea of breaking up. Were those emotions still left over from The Rise & Fall Of ’84?
I didn’t get The Wall back out. Instead I turned to my Heavy Metal music to shout instead of cry and rock out instead of withdraw. I even made a note that said something to the effect of You can always depend on metal. I think Conan the Barbarian’s dad told him the same thing but he was talking about swords.
Even though The Wall was off limits I could not help but feel like Pink emerging from the coocoon. I had changed. Not into a skin head neo-nazi type but I swore that steady relationships were not for me. I had back to back failures and I wasn’t ever going to do that again. From this point forward I would be the lover and the friend but never the boyfriend. That attitude and the rules of the game led me to the most prolific years of my life. It was amazing.
Zebra – Bears
Tina Turner – What’s Love Got To do With It
Rod Stewart -Infatuation
Lionel Richie – Running With The Night
Elton John -I Guess That’s Why They Call It The Blues